COVER STORY

"Just Me"

by Judy (49-E-1) FPE

A seven year old girl had led her little brother into her bedroom and had dressed him in her clothing. The children's mother was called into the room to see her new little girl. As she entered the room she was surprised and perhaps faintly thrilled that her son was, for the time being, the second daughter she had wanted so badly. She showed her appreciation for her "new" daughter with praise and a loving hug. At this time the boy's father entered the home and prom- ptly lost his temper at the sight of his son dressed in his sister's clothing.

Whether or not the scene just described is true is a question which cannot be answered. A child's memory is faulty and sometimes reality and dreams can be confused. If the scene actually took place it was my first experience with T.V.; if it was a dream, I must say I cannot remember the "why" of Judy's birth.

My first clear memories of Judy as a part of my personality are of the desire to wear my sister's panties and to feel them against my skin. I could not have been more than five or six years old, but the memory is vivid. I would go to "E....'s" room whenever I had the chance, step quickly into her panties and run my hands over the fabric as it str- etched across my buttocks. These early entries into the feminine world were only minutes at a time be- cause of my fear of discovery. I was never caught during my young years, but perhaps the violent re- action of my father during that half-dream, half-real

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